JULY 22, 2011
*shuffling around in the background*
Fuckin' hell... So many bleedin' buttons. *shuffling of paper*
...hmm, indicator light will blink yellow twice, then green for ready, then red to show that it's recording? ...fuckin' complicated ass thing. Oh! The light's red now.
*clears his throat some* This is Collin Yates. I decided to start voice recording my journal entries as opposed to writing them because sometimes it's best to just ramble out my thoughts. That and... I don't know how much longer I'll be able to see to write anything down anymore.
I had planned to return to the United States once the summer stock season was over, but I don't think I will. I need this year away from everything. Besides, the girl I was seeing, Katie, broke up with me before I left to come back to London. So now that we're over, I can focus on the fact that my life is about to take a seriously drastic change into a different direction. It's going to either make or break my future prospects of becoming an A-List actor. I don't want it to, but the doctors said that "it" will strike me at any time and that I should be prepared for the worst.
I've already started learning braille. It's really weird and frustrating, but I'm bloody trying... I just...how could this happen to me?
I just... I just need a year. *sucks in a slow, shaky breath* I just... please give me at least that. ...please.